PRISONER OF MYSELF

I am a prisoner of myself 

when constantly I long for comfort I never get 

love never reciprocated 

and a thorny hand to pat my back

I am a prisoner of myself 

when i laugh in agony, smile in languish 

cry not for tears won’t leak out 

joyful when I see the ruins of another man 

I am a prisoner of myself 

when I look at my reflection in the mirror 

and I see a being without a purpose 

without existence, without a future 

I am a prisoner of myself 

when constant suicidal thoughts had become a norms 

and I soliloquies for comfort

knowing fully well my existence is fabricated 

I am a prisoner of myself 

when I know my shoulders ache but I can’t drop this burden 

as the world constantly chorus “you must be a man”

who am I to show weakness 

I am a prisoner of myself 

as my tragedies becomes my realities 

I fight myself always to stay sane 

the world has no pity for the downtrodden 

@talk2leigh

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6:12am

12 Feb 2024