HERE I AM

here I am

I’m not supposed to be seen 

my mind’s trying to control all my pulses 

my impulse shouldn’t get the best of me 

here I am within a second thought 

in a twinkle of an eye, I become an extrovert 

as soon as I leave the scene 

my introverted self welcomes me with a warm cuddles 

here I am with a smile 

my head runs amuck as it pleases

me soliloquizes to myself anytime 

I’m self employed, please staff meeting is on-going 

here I am with terrible laughter 

laughing till my belly hurts 

what is playing in my head is lovely 

insanity hugs me for soothing comfort 

here I am with a subtle dirge humming 

an elegy for all my friends and loved ones 

a short choreography to usher in corpses at mass grave site 

at least, they are lucky to be buried with a coffin and grave 

here I am walking at the dead of the night 

darkness has always been my grand comfort 

wishing God never introduced light to human

evil lurks perfectly in peace 

here I am without been told 

everything feels like burden and load 

I’ve been trying to be more human than ever 

but forever is never promised, life is a mirage 

@talk2leigh

11:45am

18 April 2023