RESTITUTION BLEEDS

I tried reviewing my past 

those things I did that made me cast 

little were what I was proud of 

lots held me down in cuff

my hands were really dirty 

even when I stand reflecting in jetty

my heart was clouded in misery

now, I can't even join others to merry

I am nothing but a disappointment 

priced lots of souls cause my life was for rent 

all sins are to be forgiven 

as for me, once I point the gun, you are leaving 

I was living in terrible duel

too hot, bitter and always cruel

if you stare at me too much 

I'll think you're judgemental, I might attack you in a rush

I realized too late what I had become 

it's too late for me to even return

that spirit still whispers into my head

I'm sorry, your biddings I can no longer be fed

now I'm old, wrinkled and weak

I can't even forgive myself as restitution bleeds 

even if I can, all those souls are gone 

they await me on judgement say, nowhere for me to run

@talk2leigh

1:00pm

26 Jan 2022