THE MONSTER I DON'T WANNA BECOME

billion stings, multiple stabs

bleeding hearts, pulse getting faint

jabs and knock outs

weakness overwhelms me

my sight squints now 

as I try to focus on who I was

my supposed innocence 

because I got entangled in the games of relationships

all my guards are down now 

cracked heart with million stitches 

leaking holes as blood drips

innocent heart can't house my conscience anymore

if you were once a victim of love 

battered and bruised by someone 

don't reciprocate on another soul

don't pass the calabash of hurt unto the next

heal up and become a better person

take breaks and get your innocence together 

then step out in a new garment 

adorned with love 

but no, most victims won't do that 

they'll look for another soul to heal them

forgetting everyone was once a victim

two wrongs can't make a right 

now I'm staring at my throwbacks 

been months, almost a year I'm trying to heal

I'll simply wait till my innocence returns

will be a better heart for my next love 

@talk2leigh

3 July 2021

4:27pm