MY REFLECTIONS TROUBLES ME

often times I'm detached 

I purposely shut myself out

I know feelings leads to attachments

attachment is worse for it births expectations

then expectations unfulfilled could cause disappoinment

though some feelings can't be controlled

they crawl right into our bodies 

unapologetically finds their ways into our hearts

we never see them coming cos there wasn't a warning sign

once they dominate, we end up with attachment

I've been disappointed countlessly

my life has been all about me getting my own back

no one's ever really stood for me

they never choose me

and this was the beginning of my detachment

often times, we don't know that we have expectations

of people who ends up disappointing

since we set the bar way too high unconsciously

highly expectant of what is coming

it disappoints and we become emotionally wrecked 

how does one get through this?

this abysmal depth of unfeeling, detachment

fear of unknown 

fear of loving, caring and been genuinely wanted 

a phobia of reality 

yet still, we that tend to be detached feels the deepest 

still believe in loyalty in realism

but then, who to trust?

simply no one, not even myself nor yourself 

my reflections troubles me

it hurts

@talk2leigh

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