MY TIRED IS TIRED

Sometimes i get too tired 

too busy with my mental battles

fighting to stay sane for myself

and those that will share in my future 

all the time I smile while looking fine

sweating profusely under my skin

for the war I fight within me

it's atomic effect can shatter a galaxy to pieces

my calms are never enough

my peace is gradually wearing off

my nerves refuses to conform

the duels within me is just too enormous 

all i wanna do at times is to give up and let go

let go of my sanity who has tried for years

to keep me intact up till this moment 

my sanity is tired of the battle field I call 'my psyche'

someday unexpectedly

I may lose it, never to be coupled again

my other fear which is peaceful is

I may die in my sleep

my tired is tired for real

I'm wrecked internally 

never get lost when you see me trying to make people happy

the likes of me are the depressed souls

@talk2leigh

5 Feb 2021

5:45pm