BLAME

 

you said I was the cause

that I was clueless and irrational 

that I wasn’t ready to be a man 

I was aimless and living goalless 

but I was only human after all

lost and confused in this tasking world 

constantly struggling to become someone 

but the weight of the world is too heavy to bear 

my gender is endangered

the society was made patriarchal, it’s tasking for us 

if you aren’t made, you are caged

locked deep in a lonely world of verse suicide 

and you knew where I was coming from 

my slow progress and my strives 

you knew this and still came into my life 

then became my pillar of success, but… why leave me?

your smiles towards me gradually began to change 

your footsteps no longer make sounds 

your lashes no longer flicker when you see me 

you cut short the little hope in me 

I blamed myself for allowing you in 

silently shed tears when I remember what we’ve created

you didn’t leave unannounced, but you rubbed it on my face 

I fell thunderously to the ground and cracked, still yet, you never looked back 

it was l who gave you the power to hurt me

now I know better, I’m way past the hurt 

won’t blame myself anymore

I’m free now 

@talk2leigh

10:59am 

28 May 2023